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A Brave New World
How things have changed. I never imagined that I would have a job as an office rat and run through cubicle mazes all day. I never imagined that I would spend so much time indoors that I would lose the drive to get outdoors. It never entered my mind that the best car was the one you could get for $800.00. I never imagined that a person could live without buying books.
As a boy, I was determined that I would not work at an office and I resisted any training that might lead me to a desk job. My life was lived outside even if I had no real purpose there. Some kids spent time at the mall or at the arcade and I spent time in the canyon near my home. I had nothing to do there and no friends to meet there, but I wasted many hours there that would have been better spent on other things.
Up until a few years ago I would long for a fishing trip to the point that it was more important than anything else. Rafting rivers, camping, hunting, even panning for gold were regular activities that I fought for. It seemed normal behavior and I did not expect it to ever change.
Cars – I loved cars even more than I pretend to love them now. I loved all the cars I owned and felt a real friendship for each of them. My cars would want to get out and do and so I enabled them. I would just drive the freeways because my cars needed to or I would go out of my way to drive home through the mud just because the trucks wanted to. My cars were a part of me and a reflection of what I was.
I still talk the talk but cars have become only excessive expenses that serve only the purpose of transporting people from one place to another. I don’t go to car shows, watch the auctions, or even drool when I am passed by a particularly sweet one. I don’t even care to fix the dents in the ones I own. I never imagined that cars were really just seats on wheels. Things have changed.
Yes, things have changed. If I get an invite to go fishing or hunting, it takes a lot of convincing to get me to go – unless it is something for the kids. Sometimes I force myself to go only because someone expects me to go but it is hard to find the same enjoyment I remember when activities like this have lost their importance. I don’t know what was first – do I not feel driven to go because I don’t go often enough or do I not go because I have just lost the drive?
The most amazing thing is that I am actually fulfilled living this life that I never imagined for myself. My time and my energy are spent on other things and when it comes time to do something for myself the loveliest thing I can think of is a nap while reading a book and watching TV. These things all have the same thing in common – little to no effort. Is it possible that I have just become incredibly lazy?
I would suggest that rather than lazy, I am extremely adaptable. I like the sound of that much more.
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One Man
Written by Bonehead
January 17, 2012 at 3:58 pm
Posted in About Me, Books, Fishing, Hunting
Tagged with buying books, desk job, fishing trip